It was a rainy night (murag lami mag muni-muni -,-). After having a cup of coffee, i jumped up on my bed thinking of something na mabuhat para makatulog. I got my cellphone and start scanning the messages in the inbox. I remembered the game that i just learned to play that day. After having many rounds, i got bored.(???umm) maybe listening my fave songs could help, so i played the songs that's in my phone. As i was listening the song "we cry holy" it just came to my senses that I'm missing someone (ummmm???) I started to yield my heart and my thoughts to the Lord, talking to HIM, simply telling that I miss HIM so much. I started to cry, and i really felt the emptiness in my heart that only my LOVER can fill. HE is starting breaking my heart, revealing everything what's inside of me. I don't understand why i have to face again those moments in my life. I really cried so hard,dili na jud mapugngan.but i really tried na hinayan akong tingog , thinking that they will hear me and wonder.(im with my papa,sister and my cousin sa balay). I was like having a flashback to all the highlights sa akong kinabuhi. Then my LOVER started talking to me " you are really nothing without ME". after i heard it, i started confessing "i really need you LORD" kinahanglan kaayo ta ka", and it really break my heart. As i was being more desperate, my LOVER speak to me again, and HE reminded me of a one story.Luke7:36-48( JESUS was anointed by a sinful women). I really felt that i was like that woman washing Jesus's feet with my tears and wiping His feet with my hair. Iam laying everything at HIS feet and allowing HIS holiness moving in me. GOD is really holy.. All the anxieties i have i cried it all to the LORD, conceiving that I can't live without HIM, without HIS grace, and HIS love.
I'm like a little child who's so full of fears but being comforted and rescued by her Greatest Father. Through HIS holiness i really did see my worth in HIM.. being taken into HIS holy presence can change everything in me. Like that woman, after shedding her tears at Jesus's feet and being confronted, she received freedom from everything that holds her back. My LOVER has layed a great peace and security in me. HIS love is so amazing, and no one will be able to surpass it. I'am really loved by my LOVER.. I'am, verily HIS BELOVED....