closer than yesterday

all about me

nameless dish

Home alone, and kinda feeling lonely...

tsk.. need to do something to make my time fruitful and meaningful..

i guess i am in dasig mode. sa asa? kay kinsa? dont have any idea.

pwed man siguro madasig with no difinite reason, perhaps

this time was a choice to be one even if no reasons displayed.

with much effort, joy and love i ended with this dish. my bad i can't name it

bcoz i dont have any idea what to call this one.hehehe

i just put everything i thought, maybe could make a delightful dish

to ease the loneliness..weee

it's my very pleasure to share my nameless dish. i know this

is not new and extraordinary but for me it is.

INGREDIENTS

Chicken 1/2 kilo

Chicken Liver 1/4 kilo

Potato 4pcs.

Pineapple tidbits 1 pouch

Pineapple juice

Onion

Garlic

Pepper

Magic sarap :)

oil

ilove18

my carbonara, oh my....

Dance & Love

Be like Hannah

Facing such unfavorable circumstances doesn't permit us to loose our grip.

Just like Hannah's travail in bareness, resulted to intimidation and wrong accusation.

Her unpleasant situation caused her even more to hold on to God. He knew only

God can help her and change her destiny. Despite of everything she received so much love 

from her husband and eventually blessed with a child.

3 things i learned about Hannah

1. She is so desperate to God

2. She is a covenant woman

3. She is a covenant keeper

The wisest thing to do in times of difficulties is to get closer to God.

* I know this is what i need to do. I've made numbers of covenant before and now

and i have to remind myself about it.

God honors his word to me, and i should do the same.

#never allow failure to stop me from playing the game.

i have to live on and dream on. God is thoughtful and generous;

He knows what's the Best for Me.

klosell

lovemakestime

spending time... 

with disciple Mary ann

see u at the FINISH LINE

STARTING POINT

TURN RIGHT

WATER STATION

PAUSE FOR A WHILE

KEEP GOING

DO NOT DELAY

RACE IN PROGRESS

FINISH

party!party!

hapi birtdi november

October to Remember

this captures has so many stories that lies behind.. im excited to array them down.. i just

need time to make it..

taking a flash while break time..

me and b.bro joeven

morning shot @ Go Hotels

me and son ramonito..

my buddy for 3 days

hiede,ruby,tejuvy,me,tetata,tonet

taking some pose before goodbye

love much the wall.. it blends with me right?

as promised i will lay the story behind of these pictures above. perhaps its not that really connected but this 

faces of me reflected so much whats inside of me. 

The 3 days G12 conference and break time from work and dealing people who somehow create so much stress to me did a great change the moment i went back. I did not expect that i will be facing one of the events of my life and made a "finale of finales" of it. Before i left for manila, there were a lot of scenarios that i now understood it prepared me for the big event. This things Im spilling about is "Heart Matters" to the next level. I'm a little bit uncozy to talk about this but i guess everything did happen for a reason that i need and for others. I hope and pray that this encounter of love and obedience will somehow help the reader find their place too.

The whole time of the conference god has been dealing my heart, character and maturity in all aspect of my life using the person i would not count to be one. Indeed God will use people who will really squeeze out the real you and eliminate the unnecessary ones. I admit that i tried to make a shift and learn it on other way that is comforting and favorable for me yet God has His perfect way. I raised my white flag declaring surrender and throw my self before Him, amassing the courage i need to face and overcome it. It was all about honesty, obedience, acceptance, change, and trust. 

How i wanted to detail everything what had happened but i think it's more right to leave the rest of the story in God's hand and just contemplate the must things.

click here to start

12 lessons in LOVE

12 Lessons In LOVE ♥

1. Love should complement to each other not compete.

2. When there is true Love there is forgiveness.

3. Love does not bring out the past.

4. When there is Love there is always truth and honesty.

5. Love is a covenant.

6. When you Love decide with your mind not just with your heart alone.

7. Love does not always start with attraction; It starts with a revelation.

8.Love does 

protect.

9. No matter what happens stick together.

10. Love pursues, but it also waits.

11.Wait with expectancy, gladness, joy. God never comes late.

12. Love is willing to do it, and to do it right.

(mieloveish)

the GIFT

LGH close cell/oct.16 2012/leng & fem's diner marfori

we had checking our scoreboard and thank you Lord it's growing. more! suddenly  the conversation veered to matters of the heart. =) how did it connect to the scoreboard? well i guess it's also vital to check the scoreboard of our hearts.. it was indeed an heart opener and an intense call to pray more. Through out the conversation there was this analogy shared to us by che2, one of my disciple. I did heared different views from each of them, we did disagree at some point, parties were drawed, and cheers composed but what tied us as 1 was the true meaning of love and it's importance.

i want to share the analogy that was shared by Yche Saavedra (che2).

Che2: akoa nay pag abot sa gugma nag sabot nami ni Lord. Sa karon ok kaayo ko na siya lng ang naa sa ako. (not looking for someone :). nice nak )

kay para sa ako Love is like a GIFT/REGALO. I dont want to end up opening the wrong gift that is not intended for me, it may belong to someone. dili bya ka gnahan na maabrihan imong regalo sa uban. I dont want to open the gift in the wrong time. even how wonderful it is, but when you had it in the wrong time(meaning  your preparedness to open and received it) you might not appreciate it. i believe God prepared for each one of us a gift that we deserve and need, we just have to wait for it patiently. for now the greatest gift that i have is the love of God.

=) i know this is just simple analogy of love that we all desire and pray. while she was talking, i know it drawed a smile on my face thinking "tama jud! ayaw pangabri ug regalo nga dili imoha ug wala sa panahon. you will ruin the wrapper, the box, the gift itself, the giver and above all the true owner of that gift. you might damage the whole package of it. you might destroy the real identity and purpose of that gift. yes, God has a grace to restore and make all things new, but i would strongly believe "prevention is better than cure, to prepare is better than repair."  maski ikaw sa imo kaugalingon, dili ka gusto mahitabo na sa imo. Sa karon enjoy the gifts that God allowed you to have; your relationship to HIM, your family, friends, the ministry and yourself. Perhaps, the Lord is making you also a wonderful gift for someone that deserves. Allow the Lord to wrap on you his grace, hid you in the Box of HIs security,lavished you by His Ribbons of Beauty, and tagged you by His great and unchanging LOVE; this will make us the greatest Gift.

we all deserve to have that GIFT. Jesus paid it on the cross. we must wait for it, pray for it, and prepare ourselves to have it. Beautiful things comes to those who knows how to wait.

make sense?

mieloveish

Beautiful As You-All 4 One

Plan on forever - lyrics

Cellphone-"less"

#rest well

a little bit doleful as i said goodbye to my useful buddy; pinky-N95

has already retire. This was just handed down to me by mama way back

last year. It was not new when i got this, but still good.

Pinky-N95 has gone through a lot of operations from cellphone genius

before and i guess its time for it to rest now.

what i love about Pinky-N95 is the features and its ability to capture

moments like digital cameras. It's been my buddy and the witness for

every moment and memories i treasured most. (sigh) :)

Present research proves that gadgets such as cellphone is already a necessity

for a man to live. It is the fastest way to communicate someone especially

when long distance is amidst.

Still, face to face encounter is the best. a lot of times text messages causes

misunderstanding, fight and now crime for unwise using of this.

Cellphone is indeed one of the wonderful creation through God's given wisdom 

to man.But it should not take much of our time and affection.

reasons why i need a new one: 

Consolidating purposes-since the vision started, 

using such gadgets is essential.people are sometimes limited with time and space,

and texting or calling them might help.so helpful to connect to my 12.

bridging the gap to my family way back to province.

since mama, my sister and the kids moved out, reaching them

through call and text means a lot especially when i miss them so much.

other errands. i do a lot of things.involving ministry,

business etc.

Note:  no textmate at all. graduate nako ana.hehehe..

and now I'am "cellphone-less" :)

Perhaps God is wrapping up my new one. iphone, samsung GalaxysIII,Blackberry,Myphone.

thank you God for being thoughtful.

sometimes you have to let go to receive.

yes. goodbye Pinky-N95, hello _______.

I'm love

#outrageously loved

Hillsong - Cornerstone

My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
But wholly trust in Jesus' Name


CHORUS
Christ alone
Cornerstone
Weak made strong
In the Saviour's love
Through the storm
He is Lord
Lord of all


VERSE 2
When darkness seems to hide His face
I rest on His unchanging grace
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil
My anchor holds within the veil


VERSE 3
When He shall come with trumpet sound
Oh may I then in Him be found
Dressed in His righteousness alone
Faultless stand before the throne

treat from a "fellow"

#blugre-licious

i guess its my first time to indulge in some blugre"delights".

thanks to you fellow, it was a great treat.

thoughtful fellow who's someone from the past. 

yeah :) he's a fellow who made such effort to win this heart.

but it just didn't work. his effort was highly appreciated but not

promoted.well it's the best for the sake of all to just settle it there.

we both have on our own way differently right now. His happy with his

newly built family, and me joyful in building God's kingdom.

thanks to you fellow. it's been a while. :)

might not the best

#curriculum vitae

pressured? i guess? driven to venture a new job.

it's been a while since i resigned from my previous job. it was a worth decision

for the sake of ministry commitment. 

but i can't deny the worldly pressure and self satisfaction it brings to 

earn dues every 15/30 of the month comparing to an earning that comes by faith.

i was a little bit anxious and fretful. money is indeed a need right now, but its not all

about money. 

# i attempt

because of those reasons, i attempt to apply for a job.

i tried call center companies, which i thought new to me. but those attempts

somehow led me to something real; real things that God wants me to realize and obey.

proverbs16:1 Mortals make elaborate plans, but God has the last word.

efforts denied. God thwarts the plan and His prevail.

it calls for trust and patience. I ended up thanking the Lord

for sparing me and saving me for the best. :)

#contract+covenant

the moment i was off to my secular job and tangled myself into

full time ministry, i knew that i was entering into

a battle about radical trust. to keep me posted on this decision,

i decided to make a contract which more of a covenant to God.

this will help me to remain on track and never do any plans 

without the say of my one and only Employer.

it's a contract+covenant of faithfulness and endurance.

As companies usually do to their employees, assuring their commitment

and loyalty, signed and agreed contracts served as a bond between them.

it must be highly honored;if not, sanctions is at cost.

whenever i read this contract+covenant I'am checked

and reminded to whom and what i worked for. 

I have the Greatest Boss/Father above all. nothing to worry.

i just have to make it in the best way.

^{Proverbs 21:31} Do your best, prepare for the worst— 
   then trust God to bring victory.

# season I'm in

God has its own beautiful time to fulfill our dreams. Perhaps this is a time for

faithfulness and loyalty to what he entrusted me. "forgive me Lord for i fret a lot of time".

My profession right now, is a full time daughter and must spend

quality time with the Father; Shepherdess, taking good care of my father's flocks;

servant, serving God's people. My salary depends according the glorious riches of my Heavenly Father.

#God is thoughtful

My Heavenly Father does not hoard good and pleasant things to His beloved child.

He is well-pleased to release the kingdom to those who learn to wait,trust and obey.

weew.. :0 much is given, much is required.

ALL OUT TO HIM

2nd round

 # 2nd Round

As promised i was able to gave a 2nd shot for my Fit & Right excursion.

This time the weather was cool and still breezy, the wild waves wasn't there,

the sea was very calm and sunrise was indescribable.(no pics :/)

With me this time were Marlyn and Che2, still part of my 12.

I really did make an effort to spend time with them at any how and any thing that

can work out for our different schedules since both of them are already working. 

(nakees, if you happened to read this, i want to say thank you!)

after numbers or jog and brisk walking, we spent our breakfast at che's place.

She did made an effort to invite us and freely opened her very likable, vintage inspired house.

I'm starting to like vintage set ups, especially when it is done in homes. I find it so simple

yet elegant, calming and very appropriate.(new goal:learn for more about it)

I had taken just few pics of her vintage light and frame. I really love it.

For our comforting breakfast? cheese hotdog, Cornedbeef and Fried Rice was well served cooked

by auntie Judith(missed out to take pics of her). I give credit to her for welcoming

and being so nice to us.

# 3rd round and more to go!

one ' not so one sweet' day

one'not so sweet' day

i don't know how to start and array my thoughts and put it into words.
yes, its kinda not so sweet day; feeling a little bit of bitterness in  assenting  on
 something you can't deny and  veer.

as what Prov13:12-Hope deffered makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

it  is really a breach when  the things that you thought you might have and  deserve  withered
away in just a moment. Something that  you hold so dearly in your heart yet finding out
it does not belong to you.( sigh)

this make my heart sick; but healing is in my reach. perhaps this is just one of the many process i have
to go through to make me more stronger and above all will teach me to place my trust to my Heavenly, loving Father.
i can't contain what this is all about, yet i have the willingness and eagerness to learn and make my self more
patient. i don't want to complain or even question God,  i know the real deal; He knows better than i.

this is just a matter of trust, faith and patience. how far am i willing to go and
pursue my God given dreams.. this is not something that will threaten me, but this is
something that will push me harder  in believing and not giving up on it.

as i was writing this, i got to glance the wall paper of my loppy and i was reminded
what should love be like. Love, bears, believes, hopes, endures and does not fail.
God is a God of variety. He loves to make different surprise for each one of us;
mine is unique and impeccable.  i got to believe and keep moving forward. God is never late in fulfilling his wonderful promises for me.

though my day isn't sugar coated, this is not my end.

2 corinthians 4:16 Therefore  I do not lose heart. though outwardly  I am wasting
away, yet inwardly I am renewed day by day.

there's a choice to be made; a choice of living life full of hope and trust,
straining to what the futute holds, or maybe live my  life from what my past dictates.

God's love never fails.. its the only thing that is true and will remain.
He can turn this one 'not so sweet' day into a day of feasting and celebration.
indeed God is good all the time. :)

good to see her

#bond and eat a lot

I'm so delighted to got the chance of bonding my cousin Rue Victoria and Vanessa.

It was unplanned yet a real time for me. It's been a while for me and Rue to catch up together.

Back then, we were room mates when they still live at our abode. We had a lot of talks. She's one of the 

person i know who never runs out of things to talk about.(my patience of listening was indeed tested and improved)

We even considered our relationship like Naomi and Ruth has.

 Yet, Time has gone so fast and a lot of changes took place. Whatever changes bloomed

she's still one of my best roommate and chat-mate. I missed our time together. 

We enjoyed our super delicious Taho for only 10php. available inside Time Square, Ilustre D.C

and our ever fave munchkins of Dunkin Donuts.

#sa uulitin!

Fit & Right

Getting back into fit... :)

just decided to make some healthy steps to get back into shape.

since i reached the age of 20 i really did gained weight.

and now @ 26 I'm not that appease with my weight and form..

slightly conscious?  yes! 

i still believe that every woman should be lovely in form.

Esther 2:7- .... Esther was lovely in form and features

no wonder people, especially king xerxes had his eyes on her.

most of us may excuse or justify that beauty from the inside counts more.

well that is perfectly correct. but we can't also deny that the physical looks also 

matters as it is the reflection of what is inside.

perhaps it's not just about being beautiful, but what our health is at stake.

For today's lifestyle our health is at risk; lack of sleep, the kind of food that we eat,

our ever changing environment and our spiritual fitness. all of these affects our form and features.

we should be a good steward of this God given body; for to Him, he called this as the temple

and instrument. How God can use an unhealthy one? instead of being a channel of healing

we are the ones who badly need it.

We can have so many motivation to make it. we can use those to be consistent and persistent

until healthy living becomes a lifestyle.

with me was vanessa, one of my 12 who became my constant companion for a week.

we both enjoyed the breeze at the bay view in Ecoland famously known as the "statwa ni David".

unfortunately we can't go near to the seawall bcoz the waves at that time was as higher than us.

if you can try to look of one of the pic above it goes over to the wall level; the waves indeed went wild.

(lucky to capture the wave as it slams  to the wall. God is indeed amazing!)

it was a great time of bonding and conversation and more picture-picture(remembrance and blog sake)

after a number of rounds of jogs and stretching we end up feeling hungry.hehehe

we rush ourselves to a  carenderia for a breakfast.(hope wala nabawi ang burned fats :)

more to go.. excited to get fit and right!

Grace-Filled

# a GRACE-FILLED DAY...

chicken curry

# 3 on the list

at last! here it is! :)

My favorite and ever desired viand; CHICKEN CURRY w/ LOVE.

I audaciously cooked this one of my favorite lutong- Bahay viand. I've been wanting

to try and learn how to do this. I'm so happy and fulfilled.hehehe :)

(just give this to me)

more to learn though, but this was an accomplishment. thank you pipz for helping me out

and guiding me. 

I prepared this for my  pinalanggang God squad. Yes, this is one of my role sa team. aside

from overseeing, i always feel excited to prepare their dinner after a tiresome practice.

I take it seriously in planning the menu.hehehe..

forgetting not their comments: some said it was delicious;

but most of them did not utter any word. I'm not pretty sure if that silence means 

they're out words to describe how delicious it was, or maybe the're that super hungry.(no choice)

anyways; whatever!!??

as i always declare, I am a chef in the making; but the rest says, 

nangandam for the future. Hence, i could have them both. 

# what's next?

my best companion

 Two are better than one,
    because they have a good return for their labor:

(Ecc.4:9)

I am really blessed to have with me, Vanessa Mae Jaspe

one of my 12, to make some duties as an overseer

of our one satelite church in monkayo.

Lahi ra gyud pa naa kay kauban, especially pag disciple pa jud

nimo.. lots of conversation, laugh and 

discovering new things from each other does make our

4 hours road trip worth it. indeed love is spelled as time.

Doing a ministry with your team of 12 does great things.

Even Jesus knew this principle. Perhaps he can do the

ministry alone because He is Jesus, yet he shared it

with his team of 12. Wherever Jesus went, there his disciples

following him and witnessing all the miracles and powerful work

of him. And every sacrifices that the disciples made was 

given its due reward. 

Your team of 12 must have the same wavelength 

of vision, passion and commitment you have.

they must walk with you faithfully and unwaveringly.

Willing to open their lives and hearts to be mold and 

discipled. Not everyone can be a disciple; not everyone

is willing to take up his cross unconditionally.

That's why we should look for disciples not just benefactors

of Christ's love ang grace and showing no results.

DREAM DISCPLES(by: Ptr. Rufino Lagat)

D - ETERMINED  

R - ESILIENT  

E- XCELLENT

A - NOINTED

M - INISTER

You do not expect them to be seemingly perfect,

but you want to see them walk and grow in God's grace

in humility and willingness. Overcoming and

striving to reach the finish line.

Above all, a disciple whose LOVE for the Lord is

never measured of what he has and what he does not possess.

all out Love..

More DREAM disciples to come!

Pastel fever

# i love it so bad!

this has been my super favorite for the last 6 years. from the moment i got

acquainted with this i never stop craving. Yes, Pastel(buns with filling)

made in the Philippines particularly in Camiguin. Trust me, its really, really good especially

the yema flavor; that is so my favorite..(halata man!)

i felt bad somehow because i rarely see this here in the city before. everytime i got the chance

to travel going to cagayan, this is one thing that excites me.:)

recently i just knew that i can avail this on some big malls here in the city,.

it amused me to know. at last here it is. no need to travel  long hours, no need to wait

for oppotunities to travel just to get one.(perhaps i just missed the fact that it's been

here already for a long time.my bad of late discovery :)

anyways here it is... and im loving it more.

it does not cost too much. 6pcs/98php.good enough to treat 

once in a while a deserving heart.