i don't know how to start and array my thoughts and put it into words.
yes, its kinda not so sweet day; feeling a little bit of bitterness in assenting on
something you can't deny and veer.
as what Prov13:12-Hope deffered makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
it is really a breach when the things that you thought you might have and deserve withered
away in just a moment. Something that you hold so dearly in your heart yet finding out
it does not belong to you.( sigh)
this make my heart sick; but healing is in my reach. perhaps this is just one of the many process i have
to go through to make me more stronger and above all will teach me to place my trust to my Heavenly, loving Father.
i can't contain what this is all about, yet i have the willingness and eagerness to learn and make my self more
patient. i don't want to complain or even question God, i know the real deal; He knows better than i.
this is just a matter of trust, faith and patience. how far am i willing to go and
pursue my God given dreams.. this is not something that will threaten me, but this is
something that will push me harder in believing and not giving up on it.
as i was writing this, i got to glance the wall paper of my loppy and i was reminded
what should love be like. Love, bears, believes, hopes, endures and does not fail.
God is a God of variety. He loves to make different surprise for each one of us;
mine is unique and impeccable. i got to believe and keep moving forward. God is never late in fulfilling his wonderful promises for me.
though my day isn't sugar coated, this is not my end.
2 corinthians 4:16 Therefore I do not lose heart. though outwardly I am wasting
away, yet inwardly I am renewed day by day.
there's a choice to be made; a choice of living life full of hope and trust,
straining to what the futute holds, or maybe live my life from what my past dictates.
God's love never fails.. its the only thing that is true and will remain.
He can turn this one 'not so sweet' day into a day of feasting and celebration.
indeed God is good all the time. :)
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